I stood before you heart in my hand
Soul mind and body willing to give
You all that is me without reservation
Hoping you would be able to love me
Accept me as the flawed woman I am
Knowing that you could reject me totally
Wanting needing loving you as you were
Yet you stood there staring at me as if
I was trying to give you a disease or something
As I heard the words of rejection you uttered
My heart broke into a million small pieces
I felt my soul being ripped apart with sharp claws
My mind began to process the situation and
It was forced to shut down the pain was horrible
Then my body began to writhe in pain all over
Yet you saw none of this felt nothing as you
Destroyed the love of a good woman in just
4 words spoken without even a second thought
I don't love you then you said you OK but not
Enough woman for me to be with sorry but
You are not pretty enough or sexy enough
I should be glad that you even looked my way
That you did me a favor just spending time
As I\pick up my heart and soul from the ground
Scraped the pieces into my purse the tears of
Pain I must hold back until I am alone then
And only then can let them flow freely as
I try to glue myself back together again
Once I get them in place I use the pain of rejection
To glue them together forming a wall of coldness
That I will use to protect myself from love ever
Again seeping into any part of my mind and heart
As the last tears start to dry up so does my soul
Gone forever is the loving passionate caring woman
Now I am transformed into a cold hearted B***CH
Hell bent on revenge ruthless in my quest to bring pain
Using every available tool at my disposal from
My mind to even my body to cause as much suffering
As I can possibly bring upon another human being
Yet even this does ease my pain behind the walls of
Hate I am projecting I am still hurting and alone
Still feeling the pain the agony of being unloved
Yes I have turned into the very thing that caused
My pain a person incapable loving another
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